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I dream of answers
I dream of ideas
I seek a promise
I seek the truth

A forgotten key
A remembered smile
The forgotten search
The remembered dreams

Promise of an answer
The idea of truth
Search for dreams
Forget to remember

tell me up front what you really want from me
just know that i am selfish
am i selfish for revealing such?
i don't know you anymore
maybe just maybe
i never did
maybe just maybe
i have no desire to be your friend
you take too much of me
when the pile is already scattered leaves
barely covering the ground
a gentle wind could erase me
and still
you want more
well how about you wait til next fall
maybe i'll give you a call
but knowing me
no i won't
you're right
now go find another pile to eliminate
rake it together
build it up
run and jump inside
have your fun
completely destroying something
and when you are doing this
just leave me the fuck alone
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hoping against hope

the beauty in her eyes
became compromised
a slightly blurred perception
for which exists no correction
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hoping against hope

suffocated by the strangeness
wounded inside
there's no connection
the reasons still hide

not knowing where to go
upside down spinning around
pushing pulling another direction
what is there to be found

someday
and maybe soon
i'll need to go away
and maybe for awhile

i'll go it alone
a new way for me
but the only way i can see
for now

please don't wait up for me
because baby can't you see
i may not be
coming home

i'll push the beads aside
and walk into your room
you won't be there
but i'll have a look around

to see things about you
i already knew
things about you
that still hold true

please don't wait up for me
because baby can't you see
i may not be
coming home

and when you return
the door will be left open
a cool breeze will flow
from your hand to the window

and that's my exit
so you always know
i was once here
but now a ghost

please don't wait up for me
because baby can't you see
i may not be
coming home
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hoping against hope

A song!

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Last edited by marigold on Sun Mar 21, 2010 4:14 am; edited 1 time in total

Some poems I've dug out from a few years ago:

The River
The water drags in the middle
Sinking down beneath the willow
The stones below are smooth
And the fish swim in for a closer look

Their eyes bulge out glaring
One gulp of water they swallow
Then off into the bubbling rapids
Grasping roots climbing the bank

The mud clings and water drips
Slippery earth gives way
The grass is long and slimy
Burrows hiding behind the stems

Hidden creatures stir
Amongst the mud and grass
Only coming out at night
To wander where they may

Black
A hole in the void of space
Black nothingness in the empty sky
Stars plucked off the blanket
A new moon taking flight

The moon calls to the sun
To give it the sign to awake
The sun sleeps in other worlds
We dream before the sky reflects

Reflections of the sun in the moon
Winter’s gaze looks down on June
The buds appear to peep outside
The silver frost returns again

Searching
What lies inside your heart?
The dreams you dare to awake
The dark shadows lying within
The desire that never dies

Is it further than your mind can reach?
Can your soul be strong enough?
Listen to your inner strength
A guiding voice that needs to speak

Find the calm within your heart
Ask your soul to find the way
Take a chance to end the struggle
A step forward into the unknown

please won't you introduce yourself
please won't you let me let you
down down down
hi my name is you
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hoping against hope

there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
there is a pattern here
something to take away from
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“Three Headed Dragon( The Missing Pages 105-189)”

The Three headed dragon comes for you
In the dark space of jealousy it creeps
Into your spine it comes with a needle in your back
To embed the mirror of your infidelities
It turns you paranoid and blank
The leaves will cry once it is over
The grass whispers at the sheer thought of it.
The love you wanted will never be granted
As long as you float on the dividing line of the sky.
Into the sky of masterful fiction and damning puppets.
The first one kneels before you while the other whispers secrets all can hear.
It’s not a lie when all can see the sun as the moon rises.
The stars shone bright like razors in the sky.
God turns on us with his wicked smiles and grandeur chuckles.
He send his wrath our way for all to navigate.
Fleeing it fear we hope to be the only ones on the sea.
Where all dreams come true when the air is fresh tonight.
We can marvel that of all the lies in the world
Can be taken into account if we just had a map
Because even though the two dragons have their hold on me.
Tempting me with their treasures from within
I can still fathom at the diamonds beneath
And head South to finally catch my mind.

sorry about the ridiculous title. Laughing

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Give me the disk, Angela.
Somewhere in the world, Dongsoo Kim loves you...
Thirsting for God in a Land of Shallow Wells.
365 Days of Winter!!!

I like the title. Smile

Sounds of summer drift away
Burnt amber rustling in the wind
Moon charms and sunkissed dreams
Pleasures derived from simple things

Clouds on the horizon
Hollowed out landscapes
Burning away as sacrifice
We enter the wintry realm

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In the ethers tragic here I lie
Aurora crackling in the sky
A slumber deeper than the thought
Of a prize that could never be bought

Gossamer strands holding still
Tied to the promise of my own will
To the further fields we’ll go
Crossed with a black and white rainbow

Burnt with innocence
Blamed with consequence
There’s peace somewhere other than here
Seeking solace far away but so near

(yes, slightly SP inspired)

if i laid down
i would want you with me
if i gave up
i want you gone
but i'm still here
and you're not around
so does that mean
check?
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Why is it hidden
Something under the covers
Feelings swollen with pregnant faith
It knows no boundaries
Disregards imperfections
Shadows of doubt
Darken the truth
Keep the arrows of indecision
Locked away in time
Distant light on the horizon
It’s a new day
With new consequences
Murmurs of the past finding strength
What you know now
Bound up in these tangled webs
The waves of discussion
An ocean so wide
We’ll make it across
A droplet of hope lies in wait
Asleep til the time is right
Wake up
Its time to go

Something borrowed from the past
Can it be forever broken
Time zone wavelength
Correlation hits the spot
Continuum ad infinitum
Broken into segments
The arc finds its way
A diversion in time
Split off to another dimension
Pick up on the vibration
A thought trapped in the mind
Keep it there for now
While the sun still shines
Save it for a rainy day
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collecting aqua blue marigold

Visitors

Strange beings
These humans
Some in a rush
Some sit around
Doing nothing
And they eat
Everything up
On the land
In the seas
Very wasteful
And smelly too
Lets leave these
Strange beings
To their own mess
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collecting aqua blue marigold

this blanket of sadness
fills my every day
one blue one pink
one yellow
they try to keep me okay

and they do all right
these little friends of mine
suppressing the feelings
controlling the happy
you know i'm just fine

but underneath this skin
and behind this smile
lies a crooked little man
a desperate tiny person
getting lost in the many miles

so please keep adding on
like i said, i'm all right
til one day the weight breaks
and my back collapses
resisting with all my might
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hoping against hope

one more spoke
falls off the wheel
one more ox
falls prey to the dust

this sun bleached canopy
stands against the wind
barrels and canvas bags
a new direction

head out west
where the sun is always shining
head out west
we will get there one day

rocks and pebbles underneath
the soil a dry and cracked face
traveled upon not by foot
blistering and dessicated

no one ahead
no one behind
just us and these wheels
we will get there one day

head out west
where the sun is always shining
head out west
we will get there one day
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hoping against hope

Looking out of the skylight
Secret whispers of the clouds
Bringing the past to light
As the shadows disappear

Looking out over the sea
Something on the horizon
Beckoning, to guide me
And leave the past behind

Looking for further clues
Something in the surrounds
Blinded by what to choose
A new way, a new chance
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collecting aqua blue marigold

gently it slides in
click click
do you know?
no, it's the key they gave me. it should work.

skeleton to the light
looks all right
back in it goes
click click

the stairway begins to creak
immediately the future looks bleak
c'mon hurry up!
it's not me! it won't work!

let's try another door. hurry.
slips and falls, a pity
the darkness swallows whole
rolled into a ball

downstairs it goes
bouncy bouncy bouncy ball
the children who should not
own you now
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hoping against hope

in and out of the windstream
my consciousness
your presence in and out of mind
dead by my side
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hoping against hope